I’ve shut down this week. Something in me has gone quiet. There are a few possible causes. I stopped drinking again on Sunday, and I might be dealing with withdrawal. My energy is low and my thinking feels foggy. I’m also about to be interviewed by Sharon from the local paper. That’s stirred up self doubt. Being seen like that makes me question who I am and what I’m doing. On top of that, becoming a Christian has unsettled me more than I expected. It’s forcing me to re examine how I relate to the world. I feel like parts of my old mental framework are loosening, and that scares me. I was proud of that framework. It carried me a long way. Right now I feel like I’m languishing. There’s no clear path forward. Even writing feels distant. I don’t want to force meaning out of this. I’ll stop here. #reflections #faith Published 7-8-2025 Written on https://freewriter.app