I've heard that when you turn around fifty our parents start dropping off I'm forty-seven So three more years I'm on good terms with my mum at the moment things took a turna year or so ago and we had a falling out but whatever problems I had with her she has either made the effort to do better or I'm letting mum be I don't really know how I stand with my dad whether he's angry at me or not probably not I don't know whether he'd like ore time with me I would, but I really don't know how to be closer to my old man I have a feeling I'm going to regret not trying harder if I don't take a more active role in spending that time they live a half hour away and I see them every week or two sometime just mum because dad is up the coast with my sisters but theres no depth to the conversation with dad I really don't think he wants or knows how to talk in such a way maybe that is not necessary I usually have four or five question, him one or two, we can take a half hour car ride in silence that used to kill me but it doesn't make me nervous anymore generally we'll talk about a new building going up and what sort of buisiness it will be I should try harder I want them to know they are loved because of my mental illness the relationship has been strained at many stages I will miss them once they are gone I do not want to have regrets #poetry #works Published 10-2-2026 Written on https://freewriter.app